Fuckkkk!

Out the loudest. This is how I feel right now!

I have gotten myself into deep shit…

I have put myself in a messed place financially,

And the biggest pain about it is that it is not the first time I have made this mistake.

My therapist alluded to that it often is the case that someone has to hit rock bottom to be willing to quit or be helped.

The positives for now is that I am not in debt…

The negative is that I have dug into my savings I am almost wiped out.

The fear is that there is still urge to bet even after all this.

I will force myself to stop.