I Am Alone
As I live it becomes more and more evident that I am fundamentally alone , this is not to be confused with loneliness. Loneliness is a rare occurrence for me. Aloneness is my everyday experience. I have searched to see a semblance of a people who perceive the world like me , I am yet to find one. This is not to say that I don’t live amongst people , I do. I get along with people very well in ordinary life , but I cannot interact with them on deeper level , every time the interaction goes there it immediately hits a wall , most people have not the slightest idea what I am taking about , to try to water the message down to a more intelligible version it also not acceptable in this domain , it contaminates the message , something within me knows this and I would rather not speak than go that route.
The message borne here is not the one that seeks one to convince or seek agreement from another , it is one for the one who is ready to hear it — and this one will stumble upon such a post in a spontaneous or inspired way somehow , it is for this reason that I stopped sharing with people articles that contain a message of the nature.
It seems to me that it is a very rare human being that knows what I know or is devoted in that direction. The things that I subscribed to to add meat to my experience so that I can explain it to be masses are falling away because of realization that they are traps — intellectualism , spirituality , cleverness , self help philosophy , how to’s , methods , techniques , shoulds and should nots , do this don’t that , hacks , gurus , self discipline , will power , opinions , beliefs , many concepts etc…are such things that don’t hold for me anymore. They have nothing to offer anymore apart from circular chases. These things are what most people are caught up in , any attempt to speak in a direction that they perceive as opposing to these ideas they subscribe to would be pointless. I know because when I was there I wouldn’t listen either — I just didn’t have the ears yet , I was not ready. When I examine my own experiences and see that even after doing all the things that could ‘fix me’ I am more or less the same me that was before I subscribed.
A siddha once said that unless a human being is on his path to truth he will always be lost. He will misconstrue freedom with unshackling himself from rusty iron chains and shackling himself with golden and shiny chains. He will call this progress…