My Recovery Journey

I got a lower back injury in 2018 that forced me out of the gym. It eventually healed then I was back the gym in 2020, I had to lose a lot of weight and change my diet, and go through a lot of physiotherapy for it to heal. I returned to the gym and built my body and strength back to even more than where it was when I quit the gym.

My new found physique hasn’t lasted long though, I have reaggravated the injury and now I am almost back to square 1. I am seeking healing again. I feel pain when I sit for too long, I feel pain when I bend, I feel pain when stretch. I have had 2 physiotherapy session and they haven’t healed me.

I don’t know how I am going to find healing, what I know for sure is that I do not want to live the rest of my life in this pain and discomfort.

I am also very optimistic that I will heal, as I did the first time. But this time around, I will perhaps be careful if I ever go back to the gym.

The first step for me is to accept that I do have this problem, I go to the gym with the attitude that I will only stop when I am absolutely defeated. When I can’t lift anything anymore — as it happened last time. But perhaps I need to take an early break voluntarily. My mind has to absolutely be convinced of it so that it cooperates with me if I quit otherwise it will create angst in my inner.

The second is to change my attitude about it, and how I talk about it to people. I have been taking to almost everyone about how I am hurting, how bad it is, how in pain it is, even to myself, — I tell myself to enjoy my gym gains now because they will go when I am force out of the gym by the back injury and it is sort of happening — I held this belief for nearly 3 months now. This kind of self talk needs to change because I speculate that it is creating circumstances that are making things worse.

I will document any significant steps in my journey to recovery from this lower back injury…

Wish me the best. 🙏🏽