Speaking too Soon? Hope Not…

The things about my life that I have always wanted to change about it are finally changing, the routes I have a had to tread have been pretty much unexplainable but what I know for certain about it is that my desire for this change to happen has been relentless. It has always been there, undyingly.

This is a characteristic of the things that a human being will achieve in their life, the things which the desire for them is undying feel like the things he needs to achieve otherwise his or her life will remain unfulfilled.

What feels like the price I have had to pay to get here has been too much to afford, the recurrence of patterns before I could finally give in have been numerous. I think my mind has realized that it can’t afford to go on this way anymore — it knows that it won’t survive if things keep on this way.

Keeping day counts, looking for progress, being excited about where I am etc. would be a wrong approach to these things as they are of the mind. Each of these is a passing cloud hence to make them significant would be a waste of breath.

One thing about the mind I have learned is that the battles that happen in the oscillation between memory and future are one’s one cannot win. They are basically one domain of the mind fighting another, the win is illusory because it is of the mind. It is akin to celebrating putting out a fire in one story of a building but the fire is still blazing in all other stories. Eventually it ends in tears.

For one to even have a chance against the mind he will have to fight outside of it, he will have to have at least transcended the mind. This way he can see from a place of neutrality — he can see the chaos from a far now that he is separate from it. Arrival at such a place on it’s own is a huge milestone, the details of it might be discussed in a later writing but what I know for sure is that if one wants to approach it directly it will have to be a very systematic approach. Otherwise the process tends to happen on it’s own and for a given individual it might or might not happen.

To the enlightened mind such a writing will seem like an attempt at saying nothing without saying nothing. Such a writing is not for you. I say this with utmost sincerity, I mean not to stir you or demean you. It just happens to be the case.