Struggling with Gambling Addiction

• It has been cyclical over the years, I started betting in 2014.
• I quit totally in 2018 Dec because of losses
• Relapsed 2020 then quit till 2021 then I have been on a cycle of quitting and relapse
• This is the worst it has gotten, I am losing money but I haven’t stopped.
• I am addicted. I gamble till I lose all monies then relax till the next pay check or withdrawal from savings…I am down to my last 60 USD
• I am a junkie at this point.
• I hide this habit from my girlfriend, she hates it.
• Only my therapist knows — but he noticed that I could not be helped because I was still not willing to quit when I went to see him.
• I don’t know how this will end…or how bad. It is bad already.

I WISH I COULD SINCERELY BE TIRED OF IT AND QUIT TOTALLY